Today I submitted a letter of resignation to my parish priest surrendering my seat on the parish council. This was long overdue, and I had intended to do so in August following the council meeting that occurred that month. I have been largely dissatisfied with the work of the council as it seems only to be a receiving or affirming group, not one of forming directions and ideas as it should be. From the first meeting I knew that as a woman I would not have a true voice on the committee. The men who were nominated or appointed members all looked to the two women on the council when the priest asked for a secretary. I took the role because I know myself and as the recorder it's the only way I stay engaged in meetings. When invited to be a part of the council I told the priest in no uncertain terms I would stay one year and one year only. It has been three.
In August the blow that came was the resignation of two male council members. I don't have a problem with their resignation, it was the means by which the priest was seeking to fill their seats that bothered me. Rather than making an announcement that seats were available, he started soliciting names at the council meeting. I suggested that he invite participation--people might want a way to serve. He took the two names, said he would talk with the already overcommitted individuals who were recommended, and moved forward to the next agenda item. Fortunately, at the November meeting they were not announced as new council members, but we did have a new member.
At the November meeting, seven months into the pandemic, and on the heels of his own COVID-19 positive status, the priest and two guests at the meeting started questioning the faith and commitment of parishioners who 'weren't strong' and took the pandemic as a way to stop attending Mass. As I sat there, I realized I am in the group who is still taking advantage of not attending Mass. Comments such as "can go other places" were thrown around. And yet, our diocese has given dispensation for not attending Mass until further notice. I held my tongue but realized I could no longer be a part of the council.
While talking this over at dinner with my DH, I was asked if I wanted to find a new church. I responded that I think so. I know that people are the same wherever you go. However, this feels wrong to stay. I've made no decision on this last point. I will hold it in my thoughts, prayers and meditations for the coming weeks.
